This has been a tough year. Covid is still running amok, but it always will. When we get to herd immunity status everybody should be able to calm the heck down. I will always say the government mandates were never about our health but more about control. By and large we have proven what sheep we are and are dutifully lining up for our booster which will not prevent us from getting the bug. I did not get the vaccine because a year ago November I contracted Covid19 and still to this day have antibodies. It's been almost 14 months. I do not trust the CDC as far as I can throw the whole building. Between that weenie Fauci and what Biden's administration comes out with, every time I hear "follow the science" I don't know whether to laugh or gag. I learned that Fauci is the most highly compensated federal employee for the second year in a row and "makes more money than the President, four-star generals and his colleagues at the National Institute of Allergy and Infectious Diseases" according to Forbes. He is overwhelmed with his own importance. He is a weasel and should be ignored and fired at the least. He is a corrupt ass and has lied to Congress and to the American People and should be jailed. When he was interviewed and said that anyone speaking against him was speaking against science, I was speechless at how important this ass thinks he is.
We have mask mandates, vaccine mandates, travel mandates, mandate mandates. Because of Omicron they are closing schools, businesses, shows and discouraging getting together with families for celebrations AGAIN. Our government is turning us against each other vaccine vs unvaccinated, mask vs unmasked, stay in your home vs get out and live. I still greet people with a hug and my patients still hug me. I love it. We are frightened, intimidated, little people who are afraid to really question the crap that Washington is shoveling down our throats. No one from the left EVER questions the hypocrisy that runs rampant in Washington. Alexandra Ocasio-Cortez (D-NY 14th District) is in sunny Florida, maskless in crowded bars and social events, while her constituents are required to wear masks and Omicron is surging in her state. Her response to the Republican outcry is that they are frustrated because they can't date her. She consistently remains clueless.
Personally, I have had issues in my own family that has made this year ending very unsettled. I have had to take my own lifetime of behavior and effect change. It has been tough. I like people to get along and I really like peace. I don't like arguing at all and want to be surrounded in rainbows of happiness. I feel like for 2 months I have been trudging thru a minefield where one stray word/text can set off an epic explosion of words and emotion. It finally hit me that I was done. I was finished, wrapped up, disgusted, hurt, aghast and I was done being blamed. I knew that I had to stop and apply tough love. Those who think that the application of tough love is hard on the recipient has no clue what it does to the person who has to adjust the way they have interacted with the individual being "tough loved". It sucks. But despite emotional threats, silence and blackmail I came thru with a better understanding of who I am and just what my responsibilities are and what they aren't. I cannot make you happy, you are responsible for your own happiness. My goals are certainly not the same as your goals and it's up to each of us to go after our own goals. It's not my responsibility to get you to your goals. Love is constant and gets better with age and if it doesn't then I would question the emotion. I just can't shut it off. I love you unconditionally and that will never change. Telling me to stop isn't going to work either. Just ignore me but know that I will never lay eyes on you coming or going that I will not express my love. It may be under my breath but it's a given. Having you never set eyes on me again will be your loss because I have so much to offer, and I will miss you, it will be tough, but I will survive. I will pray for you every day for your peace, success, and joy. I want that for you.
As for my New Year's Resolutions I only have a few. The main one is to be a great plant Mom. I have the desire and I even bought a plant light for the darlings. I am reading instructions on how to care for the few plants that I have, and I am going to change my black thumb into green this year. African Violets are my next up because they remind me of my mom.
I am going to go out of my way not to unintentionally hurt someone. I tend to react quickly to things that are said to me. I can hurt someone by not measuring my responses. I am not going to let things said to me affect my peace. I am going to take time off to enjoy life. I am going to finish the photo books that I had started in the fall. I have most of it done except the ones about my daughter and son's family history. The last one is to continue my weight loss journey and enjoy the benefits of being able to walk and play with my grandkids. I am richly blessed, and I give thanks to God for seeing me through the rough patches and showing me miracles.
I pray that each of you reading this will have a wonderful year. God bless you all.
